Okay, i had a weird dream last night. It is about One Direction, so I partially blame my little sister for cramming their songs and videos and fun facts in my brain. And it's also in English, so I partially blame my boyfriend because I spent few hours yesterday with him, translating his presentation from Indonesian to English.
Back to the topic.
In my dream, it seems like I'm their best friend. I remember we were on a class or something, the management told them to join that class. And they asked me to go with them. I remember I was sad because actually Zayn is also on that class but the other boys didn't even say hi to him. I remember thinking, these five boys were my closest friends, but now they are separated. In the middle of the class, Harry nudged me and whispered 'Are you bored?' and I whispered back 'Totally bored. I need some snacks to keep me awake' and then he turned to the other boys, whispering, and then smirked. 'Let's ditch this class and get some snacks'
Somehow we got out from that class. Weirdly, they ran into the parking lot and got a motorcycle each. I hopped into Liam's backseat and we were speeding like crazy because we didn't want the management to catch us and drag us back to that super boring class. Beside, the boys needed their share of fun-time, without their annoying management telling them what to do where to go and when.
A few minutes later we approached a futuristic-style building and I asked Liam 'What is that?' and he said 'It's a amusement park'. We parked in the front of the building and then entered the building. Inside, it was a combination between museum, mall, and amusement park. I was sad because suddenly I was thinking about Zayn, if he was still in the band he would love this little getaway. I dragged my fingers along the glass display. I heard the boys arguing (I want to see the little turtle's fossil!) It was Louis that loved turtles. It was a quiet museum, but few minutes later we ran into a couple. I remember hoping that they wouldn't recognize the boys because if it happened, we would be forced to end this little getaway a lot earlier than we planned to. Fortunately, they were an elderly asian couple and didn't seem to know my boys.
Later, we walked out of the museum area and entered the mall area. Usually, I would be very excited to see the shops but then I didn't. The boys seemed to understand why am I so quiet. Suddenly Harry grabbed my hand and dragged me to a corner and said, 'Wait here. We have a surprise for you' and disappeared. I waited for a few moments and then he came back. Not alone. I squinted my eyes and squealed happily when I saw Harry's companion. It's Zayn!
I hugged him, hard, when he's on my arm range. I missed his scent, his twinkling eyes, his mysterious smirk, his fabulous hair, his 5'o clock shadow... I didn't realize that the other boys were already walked away until Zayn reached my hand and hold it. 'Where are the others?' I asked. He smiled and said, 'Let's walk together. Just the two of us.' So we were holding hands, my heart was racing, my cheeks were blushing. I didn't realize until that moment, I might be fell in love with my own best friend.
We walked around the mall, pointed at some interesting stuffs, but mostly we just enjoyed each other's presence. Suddenly we were at the end of the mall, and the first ride of the amusement park were in front of us. 'Let's ride this! I want to go with you' he exclaimed. We queued behind the ride guard. It was a slide ride, with a large pool at the end of it. I remember thinking I don't mind if my hair and clothes and shoes get wet, all that is important is him. Me and him, together. When we reached the ride guard, he glanced to us and take a double glance at Zayn. 'Aren't you...' he stammered. Zayn just smiled and said, 'Yes I am. But be quiet, please...' But unfortunately, other people in the queue heard the ride guard and started whispering 'Oh my god it's Zayn Malik' 'Isn't he fired from One Direction?' Some of them took out their cellphone and discreetly took our photos. I tensed and whispered to him, 'It's time to go. Let's find the other'.
We got out from the queue and unfortunately, lots of people too. They stalked us. I spotted the other boys near the exit access and we went there. I sneaked a glance behind my shoulder and i shocked. There were already lots of people and some of them even got cameras and mics. Maybe they were journalist. Or paparazzi? I drag the boys toward the exit access. I knew the drill, I've been briefed by the boys' security team before. I also had stuck in this situation before with the boys. What can I say, I hang out with them a lot, and this kinda situation almost happened every time. We got out to the exit access and suddenly we were on the parking lot. Zayn glanced at me, his eyes were sad, but we didn't have any time to say goodbye. He ran to the other side of the parking lot, while Liam grabbed my hand and we ran to their motorcycle. Once again we were speeding, luckily none of the fans and paparazzi could follow us. Liam decrease his speed and gave me a paperbag. There were some snacks in there, including Original Pringles, my favorite.
'Harry told Zayn earlier that you were craving for some snacks, so Zayn got you these' He said quietly. 'Thank you, Liam...' I whispered. I stared at the road. I realized that we were going back to the class.
'Liam...' I nudged his shoulder.
'Yeah?'
'Can't you... I don't know... Told your management to cut off some tour time? So you boys can have some time to yourself. Maybe hanging out at Harry's place like we used to do?'
Liam sighed. 'You know we can't do that. We are binded by a contract. Zayn was brave enough to broke those... But the consequence aren't beautiful. He can't see us again. At least not legally,' He glanced from the mirror.
I put my head on his back. I stroked the paperbag in my lap. Suddenly i feel hollow... empty.

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I know my dream qualifies as a fanfic story lol. I personally blame my lil sis. She loves Zayn so much. But well, my dream felt so real, when i woke up this morning my chest is hurting like I was heartbroken.
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Now it's almost half a day since I woke up from this dream. But I still feel sad. It's like something's missing from me...